We do not need a special day
To bring you to our minds
The days we do not think of you
Are very hard to find.

Each morning when we wake
We know that you are gone
And no one knows our heart ache
As we try to carry on.

Our hearts still ache with sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know.

Our thoughts are always with you
Your place no one can fill
In life we loved you dearly
In death we love you still.

There will always be a heart ache
And often a silent tear
But always a precious memory
of that one day you were here.

If tears could make a stair way
And heart ache could make a lane
We'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you back again.

We hold you close within our hearts
And there you will remain
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again.

MY CHILD


On the day God took you
I thought that I would die
I wondered where the time went?
I asked alot of whys??
With people all around me
I felt alone inside
From all their words of comfort,
I couldn't seem to hide, I thought I might be dreaming
That I'd wake and find you here,
I thought "This can't be happening."
As I wiped another tear.
On the day that you were laid to rest
My heart broke yet again,
I wondered if the pain would end,
But mostly, I wondered when??
It's hard to be without you,
At times the days seem long,
Sometimes I just sit crying,
When there's really nothing wrong.
I wish we'd had more time,
Before your life was done.
I hope your resting peacefully,
My precious child

We thought of you with love today
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday,
And days before that, too.
We think of you in silence,
We often speak your name,
Now all we have are memories,
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake,
With which we'll never part.
God has you in His keeping,
We have you in our hearts.
                                       unknow

October is not only SIDS Awareness Month
it is also the month of our Devin's Birth
Devin Joseph Allen

October 19, 2004
taken by SIDS
May 24, 2005
He may sleep in God's Heaven now
 but he'll always live in our hearts!!!!

Do not stand at my grave and weep
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you wake in the morning hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
(Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there, I did not die!
Mary Frye (1932)

I'm Here for You

I cannot ease your aching heart,
 nor take your pain away;
but let me stay and take your hand,
and walk with you today.
I'll listen when you need to talk,
I'll wipe away your tears;
I'll share your worries when they come,
and I'll help you face your fears.

I believe in angels
That they're always hovering near
Whispering encouragement
When clouds suddenly appear

 
DEVIN JOSEPH ALLEN

TIL WE MEET AGAIN

God holds you like I wish I could everyday!!



How Lucky He is to have you in his world
when I'd rather have you in mine!!

Devin has taught the lesson that nothing  is a sure thing,
that a baby doesn't always become a child and a child
doesn't always become an adult. I pray that those who
have been touched by him learn that when you feel
you should take a picture do it, you might not get another
chance. Hold every second of your child's or grandchild's
life deep in your heart because it may not be forever
like you thought. 7 months and 5 days will never be long
enough and that was all God gave us with Devin, a
mere moment in our life but Devin's whole life time.

on Heaven's Nursery page 88 of
http://www.sidsfamilies.com


A Child that loses a parent is an orphan.
A man that loses his wife is a widower.
A woman that loses her husband is a widow.
There is no name for a parent that loses a child.
There is no word to describe the pain.







"If Tears Could Build A Stairway"  
If tears could build a stairway
And memories were a lane
We would walk right up to heaven
And bring you back again

No farewell words were spoken
No time to say goodbye
You were gone before we knew it
And only God knows why

Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one can ever know

But now we know you want us
To mourn for you no more
To remember all the happy times
Life still has much in store

Since you'll never be forgotten
We pledge to you today
A hallowed place within our hearts
Is where you'll always stay




Perhaps they are not stars,
But rather openings in Heaven
Where the love of our lost ones
Pours down through...
And shines upon us,
To let us know they are happy


I'll Be There
Daddy please don't look so sad, Mommy please don't cry,
"Cause I'm in the arms of Jesus and He sings me lullabies.
Please, try not to question God, don't think he is unkind.
Don't think he sent me to you, and then he changed his mind.

You see, I am a special child, and I'm needed up above.
I'm the special gift you gave him, the product of your love.
I'll always be there with you, so watch the sky at night.
Find the brightest star that's gleaming,
That's my halo shining bright.

You'll see me in the morning frost, that mists your windowpane.
That's me, in the summer showers, I'll be dancing in the rain.
When you feel the little breeze, from a gentle wind that blows,
That's me, I'll be there planting a kiss upon your nose.
When you see a child playing, and your heart feels a tug,
That's me ,I'll be there giving your heart a little hug.
So daddy, please don't look so sad, mommy don't you cry.
I'm in the arms of Jesus and he sings me lullabies.


A PLACE WHERE CHILDREN ARE

What kind of place would heaven be
With all its streets of gold,
If all the souls, that dwell up there
Like yours and mine, were old?
How strange would heaven's music sound
When harps begin to ring.
If children were not gathered 'round
To help the angels sing.
The children that God sends to us
Are only just a loan,
He knows we need their sunshine
To make the house a home.
We need the inspiration of
A baby's blessed smile.
He doesn't say they've come to stay
Just lends them for a while.
Sometimes it takes them years to do
The work for which they come,
Sometimes in just a month or two
Our Father calls them home.
I like to think some souls up there
Bear not one sinful scar.
I love to think of heaven as
A place where children are.

-Author Unknown



LITTLE ANGELS

When God calls little children
to dwell with Him above,
We mortals sometime question
the wisdom of His love.
For no heartache compares with
the death of one small child
Who does so much to make our world
seem wonderful and mild.
Perhaps God tires of calling
the aged to His fold,
So He picks a rosebud
before it can grow old.
God knows how much we need them,
and so He takes but few
To make the land of Heaven
more beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult
still somehow we must try,
The saddest word mankind knows
will always be "Goodbye."
So when a little child departs,
we who are left behind
Must realize God loves children,
Angels are hard to find.

The Angels
The Angels called so softly,
That only you could hear
We didn't hear their footsteps
Didn't know they were so near.
They took you up to heaven
On the wings of a white dove
They didn't know that with you
They took our never ending love.
For part of me went with you,
The day God took you home





"No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say good-bye.
You were gone before we knew it,
And only God knows why."

God's Garden
God looked around His garden
and saw an empty space.
He looked down from Heaven
 and saw your smiling face.
He put his arms around you
and whispered come to rest.
His garden must be beautiful,
He only picks the very best.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
a million times we cried.
And if our love could have saved you,
you never would have died.
- author unknown

Inside Your Heart
I'm there inside your heart
Right now I'm in a different place,
And though we seem apart,
I'm closer than I ever was ...
I'm there inside your heart.
I'm with you when you greet each day
And ehile the sun shines bright,
I'm there to share the sunsets, too...
I'm with you every night,
I'm with you when the times are good,
To share a laugh or two,
And if a tear should start to fall..
I'll still be there for you,
And when that day arrives
That we no longer are apart,
I'll smile and hold you close to me...
Forever in my Heart.
                                      unknown

WE WILL ALWAYS

 MISS YOU

YOU DIDN'T GO ALONE

You never said I'm leaving
You never said goodbye
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knew why
A million times I needed you,
A million times I cried
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died
In life I loved you dearly
In death I love you still
In my heart you hold a place,
That no one could ever fill
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you didn't go alone
For all my love went with you,
The day God took you home.
-Author Unknown

Paint The Stars With All Your Love

DEVIN

 CONVERSATION WITH GOD

I said, "God, I hurt".

And God said, "I know".

I said, " God I cry a lot".

And God said, " That is why I gave you tears".  

I Said, "God I am so depressed".

And God said, "That is why I gave you sunshine".

I said, "God life is so hard".

And God said, "That is why I gave you loved ones".

I said, "God my loved one died".

And God said, "so did mine".

I said, "God it is such a loss".

And God said, "I saw mine nailed to a cross".

I said, God your loved one lives".

And God said, "So does yours".

I said, "God where are they now"?

And God said, "Mine is on my right and yours is in the light".

I said, "God it hurts".

And God said, "I know".